The Thin Line of Patience

What is Right?

2006-02-13T13:45:00.000+08:00

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Could someone just give me a perfect definition of what is right?!?! Or it is just a standard depending on the point of view of a specific person... What are the boundaries of being right or wrong???

One quick question, if you do something right (corrective action) with to a certain person or individual. Will that somebody tend to recall that thing that you have just done? Or the only thing that in his or her mind that will reflect his or her memory is the only thing that you have made WRONG! Do I make any sense??? Or am I just realistic and you are guilty of it?

I’m just curious of a fact that when a person is mad! Everything that he/she remembers are the things that you did wrong! Or is it just a fact supporting that life is unfair! Or it’s just that we mankind doesn’t know how to accept the fact that we ourselves are also committing mistakes and we always put the blame on somebody just to save our own ASS!

Selfless

2006-01-11T23:29:00.000+08:00

I will be writing this article in behalf of my friend...

Well, for the past twenty two years... all I do is work and gain something for my self... maybe at least twenty five percent of those is for my family...

but this would be a one quick question... can you ever imagine such person who can be selfless (what I am speaking of is a person whon is out of a monastery!)

kidding aside.. I just imagined... why can't I be that kind of a person... who is so selfless wherein when he gives something especially to his family... there would be no doubt or no hesitation at all where that money or that item will be routed as he/she had given it to them....

I really admire people that are so selfless... I am not saying that I'm a shmuck of a selfish person... all I am saying is that thinking others needs aside from your needs first... is some hell of a saintly manner... (for me) for those people that I am rendering this right up.... may God bless you always...

Tears from the PAST.... REPOSTED

2005-11-01T14:45:00.000+08:00

Well, I just noticed nowadays that before I lay my head into my soft pillows that is named after a chocolate to whom I felt it's sweetness from more than a decade or so..... Tears are keep on coming down from my eyes as I sleep... "reality bites" no matter how you prepare yourself to face the stings of the painful future, you'll still feel the itchiness of its stings and the venom that it had left on to your body and especially your heart.... I am only a man who have its own feelings and emotions... and sometimes the worst is I cannot control them...

well to give you an idea on what craps am I talking about, It's just so happen that the person who is above us all gave me a sweet something that is made up of cocoa... that thing that is made up of cocoa really means something to me... when I use to hold it, I feel that im the happiest person that I can be... It looks like that I can never ask for anything in this world... but the thing is, I'm just living in fantasy... HELLO WAKE UP!!! yeah guys, stupid of me!!! for letting that feeling lingers me for more than half of a decade... it's because of this "what if" scenario...

For a person to loose one of the most important persons in his life is really devastating, it's just like a coffee without a cream, milk, or sugar... you'll definitely taste the bitterness of life... "that's the reason why I just let this stupid feeling of mine lingers me for a very very long time...

let's face it there would come a time.. that one morning you'd really woke up realizing all of the things that you have done and you get nothing at all... it's very painful sometimes you see the one you love crying in your own shoulders and the thing that you can only say is I"m just here at you're side and will never leave you.. and all the while you've been wanting to that somebody is that is something like this "No more talk of darkness,Forget thesewide-eyed fears.I'm here, nothing can harm you -my words will warm and calm you. Let me be your freedom,let day light dry -your tears. I'm here, with you, beside you, to guard you and to guide you . . ." ("excerpts from the song all i ask of you...") painful isn't?!?!?!? it's because you are really afraid of loosing that somebody you pretended to be a pal who will always be there at their side, although you are already fooling both of yourselves... for you, you are being harsh on yourself by keeping and controlling that feeling inside you that lingers for a very long time... to that somebody.. for cheating him/her... (loving somebody without letting them knowing it is one of the greatest form of cheating!!) then, with the power that helped you to say or to confess all of those things that had been inside you for a long time flourished... after sometime youd get so lame and will take it for granted.....

Why does it took me twenty one years to realize how difficult to find that magical thing that will make your life colorful.... yeah guys, it is really so painful if you had given a chance and you just put that chance of your life in to the bin... and then one morning you'd realized that a truck had already emptied that bin and transfer it into the dumpsite and here you go following that trashed chance into that dumpsite and you'd definitely realized that out of those mountiful (is there such a word...) trashes you'd definitely having a lifetime in finding that trashed chance that you had just thrown away..

now here I am, facing the endless tomorrows still feeling the venom inside me... i know that the pain of this venom will fade away soon... but the memoirs of it will never fade away... funny isn't!!!! sometimes we must sip the taste of an unsugared and uncreamed coffee before we tend to realize that we had forgot to put a little bit of sugar and cream... and then realized it's too late for us, its because we had already tasted the coffee (the bitterness of it) before realizing what we had missed before....

Well, as soon as possible I have to recover and to continue to put some shades of color to some of the uncolored areas of my life, perhaps i must face the reality for now that I'm am the only one who's putting the shades of color in it.. I have to be alone for now, although I can't erased the shades that had been placed on some of the areas that had been already being shaded... i know those shaded areas helped me to be what I am now...

Angels are for Real

2005-10-22T15:17:00.000+08:00

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I've been in this planet for almost 22 years, so i have the right to say that life is beautiful, funny, sad, crazy, and all sorts of ideas that life can be...

And as I grew up in this planet.. a lot of ideas are popping out of my mind, (of course that's why I have a brain!!!) kidding aside... like whether some of the ideas that are being told to us are true or they are just an old myth....

let's say for example... RELIGION... (take note I am not an atheist or something, I am defintely just analyzing things here....) lets say for example for the roman catholics.. the existince of somewhat guardian. ANGELS right???

Are they for real... well the only who definitely answer this particular question is you...

The books describes these creatures as your guide and your conscience... am I correct?
I believe a lotof people beleived that these creatures flies and will accompany you in your trip to heaven..... these creatures is always there at your side and will never leave you no matter what eventhough the whole wide world is against you... these creatures are always happy for your successful triumphs in the game called life (you'l see them dancing and also shouting for joy...) they are the ones who never forget you, especially on your special day... also they are also responsible for helping you with your prayers, trivia... they pray for you also, beleive me they do!!! lastly, eventhough you can't see them.. meaning to say sometimes they are not that visible... you always know that they are just there always at your side, eventhough sometimes you ignore them and thinking that they don't have importance for you... trust me dude.. they will never leave your side....

I BELEIVE that there are Angels...

Thank you my angels...

How about you???? Take a look on your side maybe there's an angel waiting for you to be notice......

Decisions

2005-10-05T02:27:00.000+08:00

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This game is full of decisions and it will be one of the components on how do we build our future...

When you tend to analyze the word... wow! it seems and feel horrible to handle... but did we ever think that making decision will be a lot easier by just following our heart with the guidance of our mind....

yeah a lot of people will try to tell me that it's only easy to write these statements about decision making... The thing is we humans usually decides only for our own good/self (aren't we selfish???)

did you ever tried, even once in your life to make decision with the guidance of a prayer.... I am not trying to be a sanctified person by saying that... all I am saying is that did we ever asked what does our Lord want???

True isn't.... I just remember a close friend who told me that story... when we are trapped in the middle of nowhere we usually call to our Lord... but did we ever try to seek our conscience what does he wants us to do.....

As a person, I admit that I decide to the betterment of my future... but one day I realized and also asked myself... how does it feel if your going to seek help from him... What do you think???

The Industry Basics

2005-09-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

Way back in college, during my engineering management subject... I met a great professor in the name of Eng'r. Annalyn Sales... She taught us how to be tough, it's because she telling us during that time, we have to prepare what the industry is... she is exactly CORRECT!!! the industry is full of Assholes and bitches!!! and life isn't fair....

How cruel the world is right??? no matter how fair you play the game, there would be people who will be getting the points out of cheating... although as we see it as immoral... (what the hell!!! is morality important nowadays???)

the Indistry is full of assholes and bitches, there you will meet a laughing hyeena, wherein that particular individual hunts in the night (when darkenss covers everything) watchout your back and always be prepared and don't be fooled by the silly laughs co'z you don't know when will that laughing mammal strike his attack!!! there also you will meet a leech, a friendly leech who will be there when your in the upper crest of the bay, but beware.... when the leech has reached your flesh it will suck your blood until the very last drop... there you will meet a lot of crabs, species who doesn't want you to go up no matter how you tried in going up... there would be an another crab who will pull you down... there you will meet a deadly viper, who will charm you by the vibrant sound of his tail... watch out again it will strike you hard until you die... there you will meet a vulture, who will drive down to your prize and also wants to have a piece of it (such bullshits!!) lastly, there you would find a lonely owl... who will peretend to be wise and smart but watch out the owl would flop it wings during the night and it will devastate you by each flop of the wings and there you are blown by the wind!! and it will leave you with nothing at all....

Frightened!!! why should you??? just be a part of it... and that's what everybody does right??? go with the flow and thats what's the game is asking you... and hell!!! you become the ENVIRONMENT!! and govern all of them into your hands...

Walking Through Fate...

2005-08-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

It's dark, cold, and quiet... serenity as you take each step further to move a distance... it's like the game called life, it doesn't matter what route that you will take, whether the long ones or the short ones, the dangerous ones or the safer ones, the rough roads or slippery roads.... it's your choice and it's your fate that you make...

(as I've continued to walk and view the scenery of an urban area during dawn, I was like crazy laughing at a lot of things... correction I am not crazy... it was just so funny in looking back through the hands of time.) for sure I know myself and I knew what I have done before for me to reach this point to assert myself... it's true that there will be a point in time that you will try to ask your self a very simple question and yet its difficult to rebounce it by a perfect answer...
and those funny questions are who are you and where are you now???I am not trying to be a theater artist or a playwright here... all Iam saying is... no matter how you claim that you know yourself and you know what direction or route that you are heading to, there would be time that ambiguity that will definitely going to take place during yourtravel to growth....

life has a lot of things to offer... definitely a lot of people will going to agree with me with this statement... well it's a matter of your choice in what will you choose on those things that life is offering you.

one thing is for sure... no matter what life is offering you... you have to survive after taking that offer, it might be a test, struggle, challenges and whatever that you want to call it, or the greater side is it might be a reward (fortunately....) but no matterwhat it is you have to be one of the last man standing after taking it right... cause if not, a simple statement would apply to you... YOU LOSE!!!

a professor told us in the scripture in every difficult exam in mathermatics that he is giving us way back in college is "if I quit they win"which made me realize YES!!! that' true "IF I QUIT THEY REALLY WIN!!"

The old times....

2005-08-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

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To be honest when I was still studying, I keep on asking myself on when will be my graduation day to get out of the Institute... ahhhh... I'm really tired of dealing with numbers way back then... Now I am already working... hmmmm... now I'm telling myself I missed school... and I wanna deal with numbers again.....

Life has full of mysteries.... you never know what will happen in the future...

well... as I've been telling you guys since then, that I really missed school a lot... especially my friends... really!!! for the boys of IECEP-MAPUA, we normally get along every two sundays and we play basketball at our gym here... that is not enough.... for my Le Familia... gosh the last date that we had together is Honey's sort of despedida party before she left the country to hong kong.... and when she arrives darn!!! as if nothing had happened... (i don't want to reiterate that part...)

well... one of the things i missed the most during those times is of course singing in a videoke bar... hahaha im addicted to singing during rthose times... GUYS I WANNA SING ZOMBIE AND WHAT'S UP AGAIN!!!!

and then all of my friends will going to be amazed and have fun while I sing those songs...

HOW ABOUT SAD MOVIES AND BLUE BAYOU!!!

NAH!!! enough of those craps right????

guys.... I need some gimiks..... missed you all....

You don't do that!!!

2005-08-06T12:46:00.000+08:00

I know competition is a very vast word nowadays.... and in every place you'd go... you'll see, smell, hear, and worst even feel this word!!!! guess you are not a living thing if you haven't!!!

In our environment this word really exist for us to be better, tough, challenged and most improtant is learn from it....

imagine the world without this word..... let's say for example in food chain perhaps... the lion, the leopard, the hyeena, and the cheetah... imagine if there would be only lion as the species in the outskirts of africa, do you think that the lion will be able to be proclaimed as the king of the wild if this particular specie was not able to have those specie as they're sort of enemies???

yes... I definitely accept the fact that we need some competition for us to be a better individual in whatever field that where in, and it is for the brighter side on what every organization that you're in... it's because they'll only choose the better person for that particular task....

but my point is... you don't pull people down and discourage them to reach for their dreams if you want to go up.... might as well support them and encourage them... it's not a clean game for you to win in a game it's because you had discouraged your competitors to move with you during the quest..... YOU DON'T DO THAT... BE FAIR AND PROVE YOUR SELF WORTHY!!

Coffee that flows in the veins

2005-08-06T12:13:00.000+08:00

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I can really say that since my college days, coffee is already flowing in my veins....

coffee does a lot to me.... from the very morning that I wake up to start my day an ice coffee should be there on the table with it's shaker to mumble and tumble the mixture and get that perfect mix to drink that coffee with ice..... soothing....

BEFORE,In school I have my own mug in our very own iecep locker... nobody dares to touch that mug.... or else kill!!!! to drink some mocha java sold by seven eleven... *hihihihi coffee addict**** then for that matter that mug is with me during my classes...

then, for socializing with friends coffee is still there to fill up the hours of chit chats and gossips..... hahahaha.... and definitely my friends will tell me... *you know lowell definitely your coffee tastes much better than these one... hahah yup yup guys I have my own mix of coffee.... here's the secret!!!

Ingredients:

*Tasters choice coffee

*Sugar

*Cowhead chocolate drink

*Cinnamon

*drop of house wine

hahaha hows that for a coffee mix....

well those where the days... but still... coffee will never leave my life... up to the point where m past letters and stuffs coming from my friends is being placed in a giant rocket tumbler from my favorite coffee shop "starbucks"

Imagine what will be my life... WITHOUT COFFEE!! I'M DOOMED!!!

Never Sleep in an overnight... or else...

2005-08-03T08:46:00.000+08:00

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Well... what else can I say I know that life a lot of things to offer... look at what had happened... by just simply sleeping in the middle of a group nightout, funny things is about to happen..... hihihihihi!!!!

Well... maybe this thing is also an explanation of how karma works in our lives..... (lol)

life is beautiful (right!!!)

laugh!!!!!! hahahhahaha!!!!!

Familia

2005-07-09T04:38:00.000+08:00

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waaahhhh... i missed college days... and i know that one of the pasaways in the group is coming back from hong kong.... and i definitely know that she's going to treat us out next saturday... ISN'T??? yehey!!!! she's going to treat us together with her pasalubong.... thanks po honey for all... LIBRE!!!!!

For the Glory...

2005-07-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

Men are not easily satisfied for what they have....

like having the thirst for more gold.... and glory....

with those, determination would be the seed to sow....

intelligence would be the weapon to be forge...

patience would be the energy yet to be released....

and time would be the vision to foretell....

Shadows from the PAST

2005-06-27T01:08:00.000+08:00

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Until now I couldn't beleive that I'm not studying anymore, I'm not getting my money from my parents (either of them..), I have my own job (I wish I'd be promoted before the end of the year..) and I couldn't beleive how small things in the past affects my way of living today....

BEFORE

I will be waking up in the time that I would want to... and when I was in my majoring years.. I could really afford to be late in any major subjects that I have... GOD! imagine I could be late up to 3hrs in one of my laboratory subjects way back then...

BUT NOW

Even a single minute I CANNOT AFFORD TO BE LATE!!!

BEFORE

I can afford to drink at least 1 frappuccino every other day and enjoy some chit chats with my college kada's for at least an hour or two at starbucks.... I really missed those times...

where are you Rox, Jeddah, Honey, Ivoh, Helki, Paul, Keith, Arrianne, Eulo!!!!!! I really missed you GUYS!!!!

BUT NOW

I'm afraid to spend that much until my next pay day... huhuhuhuhu... isn't ironic when I was a student I could always visit my favorite coffee shop and now I have a decent job and the funny thing is I can't do that anymore.... huhuhuuhuhuh!!!

BEFORE

We really got nuts in finishing those projects as in... all of the houses that are certified tom be overnight houses and unfortunately onemof them is my place will be routed by a lot of your friends just to finish the simultaneous design assigned in your Certificate of Matriculation... God damn... I can definitely say I really miss those times!!! especially the bonding moments... ahhh.. I missed the times that we were sharing the insights of the magical word called love upon the de briefing of such a magnificent love story that we just read " 20 QUESTIONS BY JUAN EKIS"

BUT NOW

It's another way of paying attention to new people that you just met and you know that they are going to play a vital role in your life in the future so you better watch out every move that you do... or else....

BEFORE

I could easily convince my friends to accompany me in watching my movie of choice and we'll just walk outside of the walled city of intramuros while exchanging some ideas and gossips with each thru chit chats.... then without knowing we were at SM Manila...

BUT NOW

As if I couldn't invite even a single person to that with me... huhuhuhuhu....

life has full of surprises in stored for you isn't? and everyday would be a learning experience....
and I know that there is no way further than to move forward and face the road ahead...

Footsteps to nowhere....

2005-06-11T17:19:00.000+08:00

another challenging week... that's my week... a lot of applications of the saying they just come and go and that's what life is...

seeing the person especially when you had already developed a certain thing called friendship within that kind of person... its too difficult for me to see her/him go...

I'm not trying to be a goody good person co'z I know that I'm not... and I know that I was born to be wicked!! but the thing is... when I am already attached to that certain individual... I am really having a hard time to let him/her go... that's why I am hard to be befriended because I am an emotional person....

To my friend, angel... goodluck to your new job... I know you can still make it... mitch... I don't know what's goin with you lately... but I still hope and pray for the good news... its all in the hands of our HR... Glen... goodluck also to that new venture that you are eying on... I know that you'll be successful as the way you imparted the idea.....

Well for me... what to do is... do my job!!! in the way that i know that i could do it well... one thing is for sure... i know that i have to grow in here... i chose this profession whole heartedly and without any doubts... and that's where i am sticking in until the last air that i breathe.....

and may God bless me with......

Please answer all my Questions CONFUCIUS..."

2005-05-28T11:39:00.000+08:00

Well, Confucius tagged the famous line "do not do unto others if you don't want others do unto you..." circle of life is also one of his adversaries.. but are we excused within this golden rule that he formulated during the ancient times...

I know a lot of you guys would really agree with me that we are now living in a very fast paced way of life... and does morality counts with this environment???? what are we supposed to do??? follow all of the virtues for us to be lead to a moral and decent life??? or be trimphant and seek for a better way of living and live a convinient and a happy life??? why is it this way... we have to gamble in every decision that we have to make to move further in this game that they call life??? to be honest... I'm really confused, in a sense what should I do???

well I hope somebody can answer these questions.......

ciao amigos....

Thank God's there's a day called SUNDAY

2005-05-22T13:01:00.000+08:00

Well as you can see I'll enjoying this day... called sunday... har d har har... no work... and all that I'm going to do is just take a rest... and go to the service on our church to enrich my spiritual being... (my god lowell is that you...) yes guys I'm starting to attend our service every week.... and every week I feel that I'm growing spiritually....

Well enough of the holy stuffs... Last friday was such an adventure.... working in IBM was such a great experience.... including also the shiftiung schedule that will definitely kill us.... our trainor treated us at digicafe... and we were like crazy dancing on to those popular R&B tunes... har har and I almost got drunk!!! good thing there's an ice tea for just 32 bucks to the rescue...

well there's a lot of things I really missed a lot....

1.) Manang Sauce's pork chop (god I'm Imagining how I ate those 5 rices in one serving of porkchop)

2.) Pao tsin (haaaayyyyyy hmmmm the luscious dumplings at mapua's canteen)

3.) quek quek (although there's a kwek kwek stand at ayala ave..., still for me intramuros' is still the best.)

4.) fish balls (hmm.... i missed the fish ball hang out with my college friends... honey, ivoh, lady, arrianne, spy, willer, je, eulo, nina, faith, jen jen, robelle, paul, keith, david.... hhhhhaaaaaa i missed my college kadaz)

5.) turon (wow the mouth watering freshly cooked turon)

6.) coffe sessions at starbucks intramuros (roxy and jeddah where are you guys!!!!)

7.) mc do intramuros (gosh one of the most common hangouts during college.)

8.) adams (wow how could i ever forget this bookstore wherein i can buy all of the stuffs especially for my reports!!!) penge naman ako ng substance 24!!!!!!!

9.) SM manila (hayyy the common mall for all of the mapuans!)

I think there's more but
I will realized it soon....

bye for now!!!! tata! ciao amigos!!

Drama.....

2005-05-16T08:53:00.000+08:00

This is one of the stories I really liked.. "nakakiyak... coming from my sis' blog..."

Tree === People call me "Tree". I had dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didnt have a pretty face, or good figure, nor an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary gal. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was because I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her. I felt that if she were my gal, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actress and me a demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I didn't want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she didn't know deep down inside I was hurt too. When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the guy was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I didnt show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I couldn't breath. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who didnt acknowledge her presence? During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It said, Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Leaf === People call me Leaf. During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid ! my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal. I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one sided love. If he didnt like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his s ide. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years. At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Wind==== Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer t o the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, s! he will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my seniors colding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left. Leaf's he art is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree. I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less ! than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly. Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

What a very bad day...

2005-05-16T08:39:00.000+08:00

Well, I just woke up around like 3:00 am and guess what our schedule changed... from 6am to 3pm then changed to 1:00pm to 10pm... whoah... as I'm walking ayala avenue, I was thnking in to a place in where i could spend my 5 hrs... whaaaah... good thing I had a lot of good friends way back in school... So I went to Mapua to make some chit chats to my friends... and yabidee yabidee... good thing I did not tried to back home co'z my dad's gonna kill me with his laff line jokes that will certainly will make my day even worst.... well here I am jittering my spare time before going to the office.... yabada... well I think thats all for today... I gotta go.. ciao amigos..

When will you Know???

2005-05-15T16:06:00.000+08:00

It's a lot of years since I felt REJECTION.... well life has to be in that way, if you're not the one... definitely you're not!!! but we have to continue the journey and make it as your drive to do the impossible... all I know is that "I will prove her wrong" and let that someone crave for me to come back... but certain things doesn't happen without a reason right??? maybe there's that someone out there who would really be beter for the both of you... hahahahah... well tha's all for today... ariver derci...

Whatever..???!!!

2005-05-14T09:22:00.000+08:00

Well, Here we go again posting another blog...

anyuways it's been almost a month since I wrote my last blog... I quite missed the Tac tacs of my keyboard.. well im happy cause i got a new dog! she is a 2 month old pure bred daschund and i only bought her for only 3800 bucks.. hahahahahahah!!!! the cheapest dashund WITH VACCINE that you can ever had!! hahahahah I'm so happy with her on my side right now... buwahahahahahah.... well her name is "chap chap" i dunno where did my sister got it's name.... hahahha... ("sorry for me being crazy") and what else... go! go! go! ciao!

Back to the World!!!

2005-04-19T11:43:00.000+08:00

heheheh... it's been a long time since I touched these keys for to type... well I really had been to busy nowadays fixin' my life... again of course last friday my friends and I went out to play bowling and alas!!!! really alas!!!! I scored high during that game and I definitely got a TURKEY!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAH!!! anyways, my pasaway friend ms. honey hasn't proven her promises and pormises my testi anu ba!!!!! hehhehe love you always honey....

Hitting The Stone of Luck

2005-03-15T14:24:00.000+08:00

Choosing for a career path is definitely a difficult task, well in my case I have to make a great decision in whether I will practice my profession which is Engineering... "but most of the job offers in this field is quite low except for Intel" or pursue and hit the stone of luck into another industry... well I've just decided to throw that stone... a lot of my friends are curious, and keep on asking why did I throw that stone? I just answered, If you like or happy with your decision no matter where you are you will definitely find contentment... well I hope I could stay and also grow in this industry... ciao amigos...

A Goody Good Film....

2005-03-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

Well I've just watched Lemony Snicket's famous novel in which honestly I'd just heard during this time... of course for the fact that "I WAS A HARRY POTTER FAN!!!" I thought the whole thing was just a copycat of J.K's famous novel, but during my nice view of the silverscreen it really proved me wrong... the whole story was different and no magical powers or extra ordinary powers were being involved in the personas of the three main characters including the villain "Count Olaf!!" the twists of the story depended on the amusing skills of the characters... the eldest of the Baudelere's Viola, has the ability to invent things.... then the second child of the Baudelere's, has the ability to remember every detail on what he had read.... and the cute baby girl the last child of the baudelere's Sunny, has the disturbing but quite useful ability of biting on whatever she holds... then for the wicked villain "Count Olaf" a famous actor indeed???? (that's what he claims in the film) played by a great actor "Jim Carrey" has the ability to act things out???? huh??? a great impostor indeed, I think that's his major talent... I guess the other things in the movie should be unraveled as you've watched the said film... I can give a rating of 8 tickets out of 10 tickets.... by the way check out for the other participation of the famous holywood personalities such as Dustin Hoffman and Meryll Streep.... Ciao amigos...

Geared up and ready...

2005-03-13T02:09:00.000+08:00

The past weeks and days as I've sadi was really too busy for me... (isn't obvious...) by the way to update you guys on what had happened during the past days....

1. I just updated my warrior deck... NEW cards Freed the matchless general, and black pendant.... (for YUGI-OH fanatics)

2. Bowling sessions GOD!!! I really need to practice these days... I just scored 114 Waaaahhhh!!! what kind of a bowling score is that... guess what??? I had 5 open frames... "no matter..."

3.Just accepted the position in my new company.. eperformax... "lady I hope we can be together in this company" marketing associate...

4.Just decided not to take the board exams.. as if I can take it...

5. just started to work out... I hope the program would be a success... I might just need a little discipline though....

6. Still fixing some of the problems from the past....

7. Fixing up with the issues with my bestfriend.. I hope we can still patch it up....

8. Preparing for the return of our family's matriarch... THE RETURN OF THE QUEEN "still the same scenario... no one knows when..."

9. HONEY... if you are reading this... my friendster testi... "as you've promised...

10. Em please take care of my sister....

11. Hersh... I missed you so much... I'm going crazy....

12. Just watched Lemony snicket's Series of unfortunate events... "atta film" I really loved the character of Meryll Streep....

13. Torri.... you can do it... just move on!!! we are always here at your side bro...

14. Sheng please decide if you are going to trasfer to La Salle please....

I guess this was already enough...

till next time...

What a busy busy week!!!!

2005-03-07T12:18:00.000+08:00

Well, it's really been a busy week for me.. never did I imagined that job hunting could be as difficult as what I had felt last week... well that's life, at least I am not connected with such organization who doesn't know how to value a good employee.. (bitter???) well I finally ended the week on a saturday night, and I actually met my (pasaway) soul mate AGAIN!!!!... Honey... we always see each other.. (are we cursed or what????) I just don't know... maybe that's fate... well a new week ahead... I hope not that busy in comparison with my previous week.. Tata!!!

Molding the Future

2005-02-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

Molding hands

For me, I can say that the word future would be one of the most intriguing words that I had ever encountered... adding the fact that I don't have that much of a gift in foreseeing it...and it really twists the tissues on my brain in thinking for what will happen...
Let's be honest, a lot of us guys want to see the future... let's don'tbe a hypocrite for claiming that you'd definitely don't want to see it...

one of the reasons that's why I wanna see the future is for me to prepare and to take advantage if I will do the wrong move, especially when it comes to decision making for foreseeing the future could be a great big help. that's why a lot of men tries and already tried to uncover the secrets in unfogging the future...

well as they say so, what we do today will be reflecting our future...a great greek had left a great saying that "the man is the creator of his own destiny..."I actually somehow beleived that saying... yes! it's true we are the ones who is making our future... every move that we make corresponds into an equal action that may happen later... and what's worst is that we can't turn back the hands of time to redo or remake that action that we had just made... how bitter life is for us not having the capability that a pc does "Undo!!!"
well somehow I'd realized that if that's the way we lived... maybe we are not living in this world!!! guys do you get the picture? what I'm trying to say is we might living still in paradise.... if only adam and eve could undo their unjust actions during those times....
Now, what do we have to do?!?!?!? I know that we are already used to the saying that before we conclude nor should I say generalize our decisions, it is still better to think a thousand times before doing it... we don't want to mess up the future right?!?!!?
but if we didn't make the right decision, it doesn't mean that our life ends there... I definitely know that we don't have the "UNDO" capability but we have one skill thatthe computer doesn't have.. the learning through experience capability...well, I hope i'm not mistaken to claim that we humans has that advantage against those smart machines...

what a dream if we ever knew how to unfog the future, maybe the suffering of each and every one of us will somehow be eliminated.. no pain! no hurt! no more tears of sadness! no more sufferings!,no more excitement, and no more leasons to be learned.....

The Family that Drinks Together Stays Together!!! 'Le Familia Curacha"

2005-02-21T10:44:00.000+08:00

I love this Group!!!

"From left to right upper portion first: Dee (The older sister), Helki (Twin Baby Sister "2"), Arrianne (Twin Baby Sister "1"), Ivo (One of the Twin Eldest), Lowell ("The Only Son")
Lower part: Keith (Brother in law), Em (One of the twin eldest), Paul (Daddy), Honey (mommy).

Well I just woke up and my reminder in my mobile phone rang and in a period of five (5) days or so i will get the chance to see these people again... Together again!!! "United" peeps. "

God knows how I missed these peeps!!! "I truly love each and everyone of them... wanna know why??? let me share some moments that we all had spent together as I described each of these
I really thank the Lord for giving these people to help me see what's the real color of the world... Who wouldn't be happy if you had each unique individuals along your side and willing to be with you through all of your ups and downs.. I just smiled when I came to imagine all the hardships and happy moments that we all spent together...

let me first describe the coffee addicts in the group except me...

THE COFFEE ADDICTS

Honey = sweet = fashionista = movie buff = cry baby = head turner? = Caramel Frap+Chocolate dome = RED Horse + San Mig Lights = Pancakes

hahaha! peace honey!

this gal really really rocks! honey is the type of girl who has a lot of ideals in her life and she has the witts to gamble everything just to live with her ideals in life... she also has this charisma that is she asked you to do something for her you'll definitely won't turn her down... you'll definitely don't want to see those teary eyes projecting her aura when you turn her down... peace again honey! well, that's a glimpse of who is Ms. Honeylen Faustino... (I love this girl!!!) I almost forgot she cooks the best pancakes with our dad!!

Ivorie = Smart = Intelligent = Snob??? = Pure = Caramel Frap+Choco Dome = RED Horse + San Mig Lights

The girl who does it all!! the girl who can turn out a very difficult technical exam in a piece of cake while eating welch's strawberries and strolling the mall with you... how could she possibly do that??? well that's her the pure heated ivorie that i know...
(I love this girl!!)
The everdearest Ms. Ivorie Ramos

Helki = Wacky = Noisy = Happy = martyr? = Chocolate & Caramel Frap+Choco dome = Red horse+San Mig lights+Gin Pomelo

One of the Wackiest in the group, she turn the black and grays shades into a colorful one especially when she'd asked ("if john died in a statement "john died yesterday did john died????)
her smiles covers it all!!! especially when she bagged the Ravena gets even award of paying back from the mulawin cruelty!!! don't you mess with her cause this gal can sleep in the areas you couldn't ever imagine!!! "one of the "PASAWAYS in the group!" well that's her Ms. Helki Grae Pagtalunan

So that's for the coffee drinkers in the group, let's move on for the heavy drinkers!!!

HEAVY DRINKERS!!

Paul = Wacko!!! = Mr. personality?!?!?= the muscle man (i hope so) = sbarro delivery boy?= thoughtful = appreciative = Red horse+San mig Draft+Gin Pomelo+Gin Ice Tea + infinite alcoholic drinks ever made+Marlboro

A person who can really make a hot and ill tempered scenario into a cool, funny and refreshing scene.. how??? just by breaking with his funny and sometimes not funny jokes... "CORNY!!" peace out Paul! well he is the serious one when it comes to our bonding moments... I adore his thoughtfulness and concern especially to our gals... well that's it our Mafia Big Wig. Paul Bryan Sudario.

Kitz = the ultimate gentleman=rich kid=basketball addict=fun chao rice(hihihihih)=Red horse+san Mig Draft+chips and dips

Mr. entertainment during our overnights!!! how could I ever survived those sleepless nights without his endless jokes cracking here and there!!! yes that's him!! one of the stand up comedians in the group... another persona to whom you would like to open up something and for sure you'll expect a logical yet a very vibrant response.... "fried rice king!!! fun chao"

Thanks you Mr. Keith Roland Panganiban

Dee = brave = intelligent = bubbly = healthy = yummy = stuffed toy (she's so huggabble) = Red horse + San mig Draft + gin+ Chocolate Frap

She has the answers to all of your questions, co'z she had an endless archive of those mushy messages that you can feel the love in the air... joke*** well dee, as I've said is a bubbly persona in the group.. then add her with the paul and keith!!! hahahah!! they'll definitely blow youre brains out of laughing!!!!

Em = Intelligent = achiever = survivor = San mig Lights!!

We seldom see this gal, but each moment that we spent with this gal!!! is really something!!! she's the quiet type.. but she'll defintely rock you when she start to talk... she's full of substance.. that's her the Marrianne we know!!!

Arrianne = Coooleeett =wackiest of all = sweet = caring = marlboro??? i hope not!! = wahhhhh!!! = red horse

braced yourselves!! this the the ultimate pasaway!!! you'll definitely give up when she starts her trash talking!!! peace out yan yan!!! waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!! the world will really turn upside down with this girl rocking all of your brains out with her stories and stuffs...but arrianne would definitely one of the sweetest thing in our group... we love you gir!!

Well I guess this is the end of this wacky article....

THE BEST BARKADA IN THE UNIVERSE "LE FAMILIA CURACHA"

When Lightning Strikes

2005-02-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

WHEN LIGHTNING STRIKES

Lightning a powerful force that can destroy anything that will come on its way... as they've said, lightning was the wrath of the Gods... in Norse mythology the God THOR has the ability to control it...

In my case, I'm thinking of something differrent when lightning strikes.... Scientifically, when lightning strikes it only means that there is an enough amount of opposite charges that had collided into each other....

It looks ike in that millions of charges, you'll only meet one particular charge that has the same level of energy as you are... and if that charged particle has met his counterfeit charge, they will merge and join the other charges to create a very devastating force "lightning".

Wonderful isn't?!?! for a charge particle to offer his/her self to the other, yet they know that if they met and surrender themselves to their charge counterpart its the end of everything for them...

It's like a person whose in search for his partner... We definitely know that there are a lot of people living in this world, but only one of those is your lifetime partner... A partner who can surrender his/her self to you without any doubts or questions, a person who is your match in terms of everything if not, he or she will try to be, who can face all of the struggles with you and can destroy or devastate all of the forces that may come in your way... just like when lightning strikes, you are one of the most powerful force ever created when you are together... you're both invinsible...

But sometimes life really really sucks... we all know that it is really hard to find for that charge counterfeit... but one thing is for sure when you are fortunate enough to meet that charged particle definitely you'll be one of the happiest persons living in this world... happinness in a sense that you're willing to give everything that you have, even your life to that person... because you know that person is willing to die with you also... just like the two charges who are willing to give themsleves to the hands of Thor for them to be a powerful force that no one or no other forces can matched up with...

2005-02-19T13:48:00.000+08:00

look into my eyes

Tears from the PAST....

2005-02-19T11:56:00.000+08:00

Opinions! trash or gem...

2005-02-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

comments, opinipns, judgement, and criticisms.... yes! whether you like it or not it is part of this game that we call life.... some may treat is a bad as it could be, but some might treat it in a positive manner... put the hell out of it!!! we are all different... but one thing is for sure no matter what you do and no matter what you say.... there is always one crappy individual who will never agree with you..... correction!!! i am not a bitter boy!!! its just that i see things in a different angle... going back, yeah! some people do some criticisms, judgement, and opinions or whatever just to say what's wrong with you or whatever that it is in you that really needs some improvement/s... but other craps just do those things for fun!!! "the hell with them" well as i've said we can't do anything just to please those twirpz!!! (He who tries to please everybody will end up pleasing nobody!!!) before I do anything, I'm always telling that to my self.... well, if you know that you did your best shot in that particular thing that you do!! walk with heads uplift you deserve it!!! no matter how many twirpz that you might come across with just ignore them, they don't deserve even a single bit of your attention ( you'll never know... they're just insecure) for me doing my best in evertything that i do means a lot to me!!!! so no matter how many stones that those people casts/ or casted on me!!! i don't care!!! what matters most is I did my part.... i did not write this whatever it is.. to rise the temperature's up and teaching you to be mean... i just want to enlighten the fact that don't suppress yourself and giving you a piece of reality... well that's life anything goes.... tata!!!

A New Beginning

2005-01-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

Astonishingly, I just find my self writing this article about my ideals in life... maybe in this manner, I may inspire other individuals... (dream on!). By the way, with modesty aside, I can claim that I had acheived a lot of goals in life in such a very young age and I just can't stop in doing it. It looks like I have this adrenaline rush into achieving more and more.. but as what the old saying goes, YOU CAN'T WIN THEM ALL!!! a friend told me that no matter how hard you try and how you intimately pushed your self into your limits and try your very very best! you still have to feel or experienced failure in this game that we call life. yes! it's true! i had failed in no matter what that I do to prevent it from happening, for crying out loud!!! still it happened.. I asked my self why, and ask my self that "do I deserve this???" , etc.. etc.. YES! at the beginning it is very painful!!! I cried out loud from dusk till dawn as I fell asleep... then I woke up, as if I don't want to move (thinking that I'd better be dead), I've been a paranoid that my parents would deny me, my friends would criticize me, or people would be talking about me and many many more... poor thing! Yes! I know that I'm so stupid in thinking or having an idea about those stuffs. But one light came upon and made me realized to get back on to the track and to continue playing the game. (i'm so lucky for having a wonderful sister) as days goes by, I've been picking up my shattered pieces and starting to stick it onto my self and collecting thoughts on how will I face, recourse and strengthen up my gameplay. one idea strucked my mind... that someone that we know above us has really a purpose, that's why he place that hole into my course. maybe it's a sign that I've been to fast in playing the game and already stepped up a lot of my playmates or maybe I'm to far enough and it's time for me to slow down and learn something in this particular area and that knowledge might come in handy on to the next course of the game. Well, I know that it's not enough for me to end this game, but with this thing that had happened to me, I had learned how to stand and to move back to my track with my head lifted up... in the first place, i have nothing to be ashamed of! isn't??? lastly, if something unusual or unplanned or something strange happened into your life... DON'T ASK WHY......